I always wonder where my life is, who I am and who I could be. But now looking back I realise that's all I've ever done wondered. I haven't lived the life I wanted I haven't got even close. I see all the people that I saw as my family living their lives and living their happily ever afters and I'm just not. And it's not because I haven't had the chance which I have it's because I'm afraid and I'm so tired of being afraid. I'm unhappy with my job, with my life and I've never tried to change it