Broken

Dear Diary...

its funny how you can be comfortable talking about your problems with complete strangers but you find it hard to tell the people that your closest to.
I'm just feeling so broken. its almost like I'm depressed but i don't think i am.
i feel like i am falling off my path and the path that i have fallen on to is really bumpy
its hard
i mean I'm nearly finished with college and i have so many futures facing me and choosing the right one isn't easy i mean do i want to go into education in to university in to full time work or do i want to take a gap year and maybe travel a little bit!
i am feeling lost
there is so much weight on my shoulders and i ma struggling to keep upright
its hard
there is so much expectation put onto me.
i am really losing my way
i have been ill recently
and i have fallen so behind on the coursework
and i have like three weeks left
and i just feel like i am on my own
feel like there is no one around to help me
and yet i am expected to help everybody else out
like helping take care of things for other people so as they don't have to worry
i am like a natural born worrier and i would rather have to worry about everything so as nobody else has to worry
but just once i wish that someone else would take everything off my shoulders so as they can try and understand how i feel
when will anybody try to protect me??

so as i said broken slightly depressed ??

it really is funny how i can explain all this to complete nothing but i cant explain it to anybody else?